I went to Amsterdam to see a friend

I forgot to finish writing this on Tuesday and so also didn't post it but now I'm posting it, incomplete. Oh well. 

On Sunday, a week and a half ago now, I got a text from a friend of mine asking what I'd be up to the following weekend because he might be in Amsterdam. I'll spare you the specifics of the back and forth, but he sent me the text in the mid afternoon and we had booked the trip before I went to sleep that night. 88 round trip! Wow! It's kind of amazing I can just do that now. Also amazing I crossed a border on a regional train. Also amazing that Amsterdam has shops where you can buy "magic truffles" which are ever so slightly different from regular psilocybin mushrooms (they grow underground, not above) and therefore legal. They're like dispensaries, you choose which strain you want based on which effects you want. Again, amazing! What a crazy thing! I thought my friend was kidding or deluded when he explained it to me, but then we saw a shop and he was right! 

I got in late on Friday night, around two in the morning, after a four-train adventure. On the first one, I met this beautiful classically trained singer whom I chatted with on and off for the entire ride. We exchanged contact info at the end and now I have a place to stay in Münster if I'm ever there, which means I need to find an excuse to go there ASAP. 

Well, I went on my first date in Berlin.

It was good in that I had fun and enjoyed the conversation, but I just do not see it going anywhere romantically. He was too meek. It was the guy from the blues dancing thing last week. Anyway, I've dated people before who can be described as meek and although it feels a little mean to say it, I can't stand them. Like. Grow up. But I do think we can be friends! I am debating whether or not that is something that I need to explicitly say, because it wasn't explicitly a date and didn't have much of a romantic vibe (or really any at all) but it is possible that he thought that because I was enjoying myself that meant it was a Good Date. You know what I mean? I may just see what it's like the next time we see one another, probably on Friday night for blues dancing again, and then decide whether it needs to be addressed or not. I really can't picture him making a move on me (again, he's too meek). 

In general at the moment I'm not seeking out dates. I'm not on the apps and I haven't been meeting anybody I want to go on a date with, I kind of just went on this one because why not? I enjoyed chatting with him last weekend so there wasn't any reason not to. And hey, maybe I could've realized that I am attracted to him and do want to date him. But I didn't.

I am so sleeeeepy and I don't know why

I got enough sleep last night! I had a headache last night and have it again today. And I spent all day yesterday doing one mind numbingly boring task, so I think that may have played into it a bit. I ran some errands today. I feel like you know you really do live in a place when you run into people you know on the street and I was thinking about that a bit today. Berlin is such a big city and I know so few people and I've only been here a month and so running into anybody I know is very unlikely. Would you believe me if I said that it happened to me today? I was on my way to the Kiehl's shop in downtown Berlin and was passing in front of the opera house and another girl I know from my hometown stopped me on the street! She'd been at a yoga class in the opera house, very interesting. I've been meaning to get together with her since I got here, but hadn't gotten around to it yet. We chatted for a minute and now I might be going to her dnd campaign's Valentine's Day extravaganza on Wednesday. I'm very excited about that. 

I came home, thinking maybe I'd take a nap. Haven't done that. Did watch some youtube videos and some instagram reels. That all didn't help the headache. I'm heading out soon to this art exhibit thing that I think is like lights? I didn't bother to look closely at the website before agreeing to go. We said we'd go out to a bar after if we're feeling up to it but I don't really think I'll be feeling up to it... I think I want to come home and watch a movie and go to sleep early.

I! Am! Making! Friends!!!

I think I generally just prefer writing something somebody else will read over writing in a diary, which is a shame because I do think diaries are great (and I do keep one, kind of inconsistently). Not sure if it's just this week or if it'll continue, but there definitely is a chance this will become a nearly daily thing in the longer term. 

Yesterday was excellent!!! I met up with my friend (I feel like I can call her that at this point, I think this is the beginning of us spending more time together and I've really enjoyed all the time I've spent with her and can only assume it's mutual) and her guy she's "kind of seeing right now" at a building that belongs to her university because it's near where the protest was starting. Her other friend somehow ended up in a suburb of Berlin because the same street address exists there, so we waited quite a while for her and didn't get to the protest until quite late. Oops. It was weird, though, because my phone took me to the right place. Apparently a lot of places in Berlin exist twice, because this is the second time I've had this issue and I've only had like four social outings since moving here. 

So many of the people in my life have lived such bizarre and interesting lives that you constantly get whiplash hearing their stories and this girl is absolutely at the top of that list. Definitely top five, maybe top three. Absolutely top three if we're only counting people in our general age range. I really do want to tell you all the stories I heard yesterday but I just don't feel like they're mine to share publicly on the internet (even though I know, realistically, it's at maximum you and two other people reading this). 

None of us dressed for the weather, so in our protesting adventures we got absolutely soaked. We also got lost at one point trying to find the protest and then I, the person who has lived in Berlin the shortest time, guided us to it. Afterward, we ended up going to a bar and having some beers and smoking cigarettes (indoors! my coat smells of them now) (I didn't smoke any cigarettes inside but they did. I figure if I stick to one cigarette when I'm out with friends, unless I'm drunk, I wont get addicted and I'd already had my allotted one cigarette of the day) and chatting for a couple hours. Lots of laughter, lots of hypothetical plans made (backpacking trip in Bulgaria?), lots of stories told. Her boy and her friend are also people who have a lot of crazy stories. To give a little taste, the way she and her friend met involves an exorcism and the reason for Bulgaria being a destination of choice is because of a recent trip there by her and her boy that was because a friend of his had unfinished business with the Bulgarian mafia. 

I have some sort of growth on the back of my left shoulder. It's either a cyst or it's a giant zit and I've been kind of freaking out about it for the past couple of days. I told them about this and, wouldn't you know, her friend has a long history of with cysts and giant zits and other similar things! One time, she had to have a cyst surgically removed from her butt cheek that left a gaping hole she had to pack with gauze for a few weeks following the surgery. Inconvenient, but not necessarily a huge problem, except for the fact that she's a stripper and had to take time off from work because how are you going to work with a huge hole in your butt cheek? Regardless, she wrote down exactly what I should do and what medicine I needed and I went to a pharmacy and got the goods and did as told before bed last night. 

I need to buy a bicycle soon. 

Blues dancing in Berlin, finally.

I took an ubahn line to its last stop and walked fifteen minutes or so in the dark (not complete dark, but Berlin really ought to have more street lamps than it does) until I got to a little bar at the very end of its street. The place has a dancefloor and there's an upper area in the back (open to the dancefloor) with seating. Some sofas and armchairs and, farther back, tables and regular chairs. Not the best explanation. I'll try to remember to take a photo next time. 

When I got there, they were just finishing up the lesson and I was really seeing what this guy I met at a swing dancing thing almost two weeks ago said about Germans and moving their hips. Not the best innate sense of rhythm and not the best hip mobility. Once the lesson was over and people started to dance socially, though, I was pleasantly surprised! Whenever I go to a new place for dancing, I tend to dance more with older men than any other demographic (my least common demographic is women my own age) and last night was no different. I was chatting up a storm and asking them who they recommend I dance with next and I've come to realize that it is very common here to dance two or three songs in a row with somebody, even if you don't know them. That's very explicitly bad manners in other social dance scenes I've been in. It's really been throwing me for a loop and, if I didn't enjoy dancing with them, I still feel a little obligated to dance another song with them. 

I danced with a few very very very good leads, but didn't chat too much with any of them. No instant bonds there. 

There was a man there whom I'd met when I went swing dancing nearly two weeks ago now, an older Mexican man who's lived in Berlin for seventeen years. I'm about to head out in about five minutes to go to a protest (pro-Palestine) and he may meet me there. We exchanged numbers. I also met someone my own age (wow!!!), a British guy I chatted with for quite a while after he bought me a beer. I can't tell if he was flirting with me or not, he's kind of the twink to end all twinks but I've come to realize I'm just the type of woman bisexual twinks are interested in so I'm not sure that's a reason to rule the possibility out. Regardless, it doesn't really matter because I am not interested in him in a flirtatious way. I would like to be his friend though and plan to make that happen. We also exchanged numbers. 

I'm meeting up at the protest with a girl from my hometown. I've always thought she's so cool, but we've never been friends. We bonded a bit this summer at a music festival right before I came out to Germany for my big Finding a Job Trip. She told me to let her know if I ended up in Berlin and, well, here we are. 

I've been considering for quite a while (probably about a year now) getting a lip piercing. I've heard it referred to as a pout, though I doubt that's the real name, it's the one in the center of the bottom lip that goes in right under the lip and comes out in the front of the lip. I would get one that's just one hole right under the lip, but lip piercings are actually really bad for your teeth, so I don't want any metal fully inside of my mouth. 

I burst out laughing at the thought of you smelling like a horse farm.

 That's all.

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